AFTER ALL THESE YEARS (HOW COULD I POSSIBLY GO BACK OUT THERE?) / SHORT FILM (2019)
Carla, aged 26 (but FEELS more like 25) is ready to get back out into the world, after a harrowing breakup with a man named Carl. Through trials and tribulations, and the occasional calming ASMR video, she manages to find a strategy in tackling the curveballs that come with modern heartbreak.
I think the projects that worked out the best in my personal experience were the ones where I kind of had no clue what I was doing, and so I sort of floated through the process and really went with what my gut suggested. It was an unadulterated time in making things, and I had just gotten settled in Toronto and just started to meet very talented young people who were giving me the time of day.
It was the first time I addressed myself being a director and truly had such a remarkable crew and collection of support and talent that it really was the springboard for many future relationships, opportunities and so on.
It hadn't occurred to me at the time that many of the people who agreed to help me on the project were so seasoned and very much pros of their line of work - I only discovered this much later. People like Paul Skinner has made films like Code 8 just before, and were now taking the patient and very hands-on approach to working with me in the editing room. I never once felt like I didn't know what I was doing, because everyone gave me so much credit. It was a treat. I look back often now at this film in complete fondness, as it still rings true and gives me that sense of comfort that what I had set out to do (tell a relatively simple story about a girl in a house who was kinda sad and kinda neurotic and kinda mad) ended up exactly how we wished it would.
I will say that this was also my first entry into festivals. Just as I had received a couple of nice reviews and acceptances, I also received many rejections, of which one of my favourites included a written review (which i paid for) from some guy who sent me something along the lines of "what at first appears beautiful and deep is in fact, quite shallow and just looks good."
I'll take it. (I mean, ouch, and I think you're a jackass, and how can I have your job, Sir?!) but I'll take it!
After All These Years (How Could I Possibly Go Back Out There?) Short Film
Written by Sara Jade Alfaro & Luke O'Brien
1st AD Bella Randazzo
Kat Khan as Badminton Friend
Sal Fasullo as Gardening Man
Narration by Lindsey Gardner
Production Designer Bibi Wanjiro
Art Direction by Caitlin Smith
Wardrobe Stylist Rachel Ludlow
Wardrobe Assist Vivi Diaz
1AC Alex Clark & Richard Gonzalez
Ronan Operator Dane Cutcliffe
2AC Tom Wood
Gaffer Andy Youn
Grip Satrio Prahasto & Liam Rosborough-Feltham
DIT/VTR Zong Li
HMU Arielle Park
Sound Recordist Randy Resh
Production Assistants Tyler Klementti
On Set Photographer Louisa Nuebel
Editor Paul Skinner
VFX & Online editor Trevor Corrigan
Graphics Designer Nathan Boone
Colourist Jason Zukowski @ REDLAB
Voiceover casting by Vapor Music
Voiceover Producer Alyssa Sinclair @ Vapor Music
Voiceover Recordist & Engineer Sebastian Biega
Music supervision by Grayson Matthews
Post Audio Engineering by Chris Masson
Post Audio Producer Kelly McCluskey
SPECIAL THANKS TO